It was brought up to me this weekend that I don't keep alot of people next to me. I don't keep alot of friends, I distance myself from people that I can. It gets lonely sometimes, lonely enough that honestly sometimes I like to be left alone on birthdays and holidays. Its's one of those prices you pay to be successful. You know whether its family, people that are friends, girlfriends....whatever. Things like this I do it not even knowing. Maybe its just on instinct. You know if I focus enough attention on you or bring you closer into my little circle its probably closer than I let most....especially if you come in my home. Its probably enough to do some damage.
I didn't have enough cash on me this morning and I was continuously thinking about someone so I decided to stop and walk up a couple of streets and pick some. This is something that is completely not me to do. It was something to let them know I was thinking about them.......it wasn't enough I don't think. I've never mentioned her name on this thing, it was always private. It was my secret and it wasn't for anyone to be questioning or keep poking at. Like I said I can do alot of things but a relationship just doesn't seem to be one of them..........maybe it'll change.
Sorry Dora.
