A letter to God

Its Sunday again, and everyone knows how Sundays go around here. Its no big secret that when it comes to religion, I don't take that to heart. At least not in the way that would seem the most common. There are too many wars and acts done in the name of God and the church. The people are what make this idea dirty. The people tend to make judgements about people or experiences in life that they have never felt or seen. Now some of these "experiences" aren't all bad, and its just a matter of time before they turn into promising relationships. As twisted as some of them might seem they still have a future somewhere in them. This is where my letter to God comes in. Now be aware that this act might seem blasphemous in some way, but it's something I feel, and something that I have to get out of the way. Most people who've lost someone I'm sure have felt this way and not said it aloud. That's them not me. So here we go. My letter to God.

"Me and you have a real problem. It feels like two plates have been put on the table, right in front of a hungry person. On one plate you can have all the success you want. You can help everyone around you, you can have it with almost no real obstacle in your way. Everyone will have what they need, You'll have your success, you're "battles" won; and nothing can stop you from your ultimate goal. On the other plate you can never have a real relationship. I've gone out with plenty of women, but I can honestly say there are only two that have stuck heavily on my mind as well ..........as my heart. One was a long time ago.... the other more recently. I don't have to say her name, your god you should know. Why does it have to be like this? What's the point? Your not supposed to question you but I'm doing it. Is it to make the heart grow fonder? To show someone what its like when they're not around? That's a revolving door. It might work on one side but not on the other. If I know how she feels and she misses me and I'm the same, why do you let things get in the way. Am I not supposed to have a real relationship? Me and you have a real problem God, and when it's all said and done we're gonna settle up. To make it more fair, so that I'm not missing anything, I'll see you in church on Sunday. If that man on the pulpit has something to say I'll listen. I'll have someone I can stand next to and be proud of, someone that I can hold and comfort when they need it. If we got a problem, we're gonna figure it out. Yes I'm angry and hurt, but that seems to work for me. I don't really know how to have that "peace" you give some people. I should have some now, I did, but again they're no where to be found. Let her sing for you, let me paint for you, if you want our relationship to work then fix it. Prove me wrong."