Please Refill My Soul

There isn't much to say really.....About 6:oo last night I just kept watching the time. It was really crazy. Its like waiting and watching and you can't stop time. I'm doing these paintings and really they're coming through, but I'm not all there. I'm somewhere else, with my head and heart. Its a reeally heavy pain in my chest. It shouldn't be possible to feel for someone so much, and when you do you really need to hold on to that person. I've done crazy things in my life, met alot of people. If your head and heart are there, then God had to have delivered that person for you. Its a mysterious thing but thats what he does. If that person is a match for you, grab her/him, hold her, tell her, just show that person. Let them know they're on your mind. That you're thinking about them and want to be right next to them. Whether it be at dinner, a movie, taking a walk, or just at a park. If you really want to, if its available....even an art gallery.

I've got some paintings that are due, Sunday and Wed., after that I don't know. They are as follows Day of the dead stuff (about 3-5 paintings-depending on size),A family crest, and a modern abstract of the last supper. even tough I'm not all myself, I think the paintings should come out good; but not to where I pour all of myself into them. I've got alot of myself with someone, that hopefully is feeling the same way and hopefully they can feel that. Maybe God can give them a telephone to call just to say Hi and talk a little. Maybe something like "just to see how the park was" or maybe a " I miss you so much". Who knows. Will it happen? I don't know, but if it does.........it would definitely mean something. Maybe that they care and want to be there with you.........I guess I did have something to say after all.


P.S. I'm super-mad tired and planning on locking myself in the gallery again tonight.
Hunger is gonna play somewhere into that. So any chicken getting dropped off would be good.